In Pursuit of the Light

Today, I want to continue my very personal story (last post was in October 2014) and as “Circle of fear” feels rather like where I have come from than where I am going to, I want to rename my very personal story from now on to “In Pursuit of the Light”. To illustrate what I mean with these words, I want to show you my…

Vision of life

The goal(s?) in my life

The power of love

Yes: I am a dreamer

And yes, sometimes it feels like a punishment but it feels so great when you meet someone who sees the dawn with you before the rest of the world and maybe can even help you make the world see it a little earlier.

Why sustainability?

But now back to my very personal story…

In Pursuit of the Light

Let’s say I begin to think about my life again after three years filled with studies and girlfriend struggle. I discover the great book “The seven habits of highly effective people” by Stephen Covey and begin taking control of my life again. I do better at work, enjoy my life more and more and feel quite good. I am spending very great summer holidays, one week of hiking with my parents (Austria) and two weeks of language-learning/practising and partying/excessive dancing (Salamanca, Spain). I discover how much I like to get to know to new people once again and organise some parties and connect people to each other. Back in Germany, some may have a hard time getting used to my new self-confidence but yeah, we are working on that. So lots of things are happening/I make lots of things happen and I want to leave you here for getting my shower to get ready for another exciting day.

This is how I left you last time I was writing down my very personal story. So what happened since then?

After the extreme energy and dancing in Summer 2014, I get known to a lovely girl from Fall to Spring and reaching Summer 2015, I wake up from my “Wintersleep” realizing I was not living to my full potential in this relationship and we break up. In Spring 2015, I begin working as an IT consultant quitting the company I worked at during and after my studies. As I am working most of the time from my home office (and only sometimes having workshops with customers what I would prefer much more), I look for excitement and social interaction outside of my work. I go a lot to the dancing parties of my dancing school, most of the time with the dancing partner I am dancing with for more than a year now. We spend our summer holidays at the Lake Constance together and enjoy the time very much. I am reaching my highest energy at the end of September 2015 when taking part in the Project Management Karlsruhe where I can talk and think a lot with great people and inspiring sessions.

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I go to another dancing party just after the PM Camp is over and my life changes in a sudden. I am dancing with a woman I am knowing quite well for the little walk we had with some other persons from my dancing school in the summer. She tells me that my eyes would look empty and I begin to listen to my body. She tells me a few words while we are dancing and all of a sudden, my artificially pushed energy level gets down to a kind of natural tiredness after exhaustion and at the end of the dance, we hug each other. Laying in each other’s arms, we change the room and sit down for a close talk. In the following days, we see each other a lot and have continued to do so ever since. My words from “In our forest” are inspired by our first days. We seem to be very different but having the same goals in life which means we can support each other quite well, living a love I have not known before. When I see my grandma for the next time, I tell her that I have a new girlfriend and before she can reply anything, I tell her “I believe this time, she’s the one”. I am sure we will enjoy our pursuit of the light together.

But well, there is not only light in the world. In Spring 2015, I discover that I have started my master studies (distant learning) without thinking too much and decide to quit the pain and live without master degree – quite well so far I think.

In Fall 2015, I end the friendship with my dancing partner I spent my summer holidays with because I feel like I have to be an older, less energized version of myself when being with her. It gets complicated and sometimes ugly but feels great once I have cut all ways back – after all it is often leaving a door back open which ties us to our past and prevents us from reaching our full potential, I think. Of course, this does not mean that we do not need to make peace with our past – I accept that I have lost a friend but am grateful for the great time we had.

With the shaping of my vision of life I told you about above, I feel wrong with my job at the IT consulting company. I feel like I have to do too much things, I don’t love or the world don’t need that much and at the same time, I have learned during a Massive Open Online Course about Social Business which great things companies can do. I love my customers and enjoy working with them a lot but my bosses boss me around too much and sometimes show that they dream less than I do. I know that I am a hard-to-employ employee because I do not accept leadership executed by organizational position (“You have to do so because I am the boss”) and ask for real profit from my work for our customers and less focus on the profit of the company. But anyway, I close the door to my past once more and quit the job (currently I have my last working days till January 2016). It feels great, this smell of adventure!

Well, I am not unemployed despite this, I have started working for the Cooperate State University Karlsruhe as a project staff member in the area of eLearning (well known from my studies) – a job which feels a lot more like the purpose star in the first image.

DSC_5928_smallAnd there is a lot more to come, whatever it may be. I am on my way in pursuit of the light.

Enjoy the last days of this year – spend the Christmas days peacefully and wisely with your loved ones and if we do not talk to each other before 2016 – have a great start into the new year everybody!

 

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In our forest

Why should I destroy what is growing under your feet?
Why should I cut the things around you,
fill the ground around you with concrete?
Build a fence around you and isolate you
so that you only grow by me?

We are trees in the forest,
our roots touch each other.
We live by the same soil.
Breathe the same air,
drink the rain together.

On your own you will die if I don’t water you.
With me, you will only grow by my light and water.
I love the passion for life.
I love the power, the surprise, the storm.
Who should light up the fire that I did not see coming?
Who but you, ignited by someone else?
Breathing the oxygen the sky gives to you.

Fly free like a bird in the sky, my heaven.
Dive to the sea bed and taste the sea.
Sing and dance, laugh and jump, cry and shout.
However you need it.
I am with you.
I am with you wherever you are.
I am with you whatever you do.
Fly my bird, fly.
Breathe life.

In our forest, there is space for everybody
For everybody who lives, who loves, who is.
I want to multiply peace, the sign of love, by ten,
giving the power of humanity to the earth,
forever.
Be my peace, my love,
I be your power and you be my earth,
I be your love and you be my life,
my eternity, my present, at the moment.

In times of silence, I can feel you.
I am often too loud, often too fast
Am the bow tensed with an arrow and fly with the arrow.
When I am with you, I am with me, my homeland, my harbour.

Blow all the borders with your roots growing.
Hold your treetop upwind and downwind, no matter the storm.
Give love and soil to grow at your roots.
Fly my bird, fly,
Breathe life, my heaven.
Let us multiply peace, the sign of love, by ten
and let us give the power of humanity to the earth,
forever.
When I am with you, I am with me, my homeland, my harbour.
My heart, my soul.
We will find each other again and again,
no matter which space,
no matter what time.

… and it makes sense!

Hey folks,

some of you might already know that I am currently taking part in the CBS Social Entrepreneurship MOOC. My original intention was both to learn more about social business (which I find a great way of working on social and environmental problems in a sustainable way) and about entrepreneurs (whom I find very interesting and inspirational personalities). Now I am part of an online project working on delivering personal and emotional support online to people in need of it and training mentors to give this support. More information on this project can be found here and before starting with my main post, I will share our short presentation video (“pitch”) we just have done for the online course:

Always looking for feedback by the way 🙂

But now to what I want to share with you today:

An entrepreneur is born (… and it makes sense)

First, I don’t think someone becomes born as an entrepreneur. But if you tend to seek solutions for problems existing in your environment, you are likely to become an entrepreneur one day. I think the most organic (in the meaning of continually growing) and sustainable way of becoming an entrepreneur is to be deeply committed to solving a problem in your environment (e.g. loneliness of the elder people).

You now begin to think about and search for solutions and develop a kind of idea what your solution could look like to solve this problem. Feeling this deep commitment and therefore need for a solution, you have a fire burning within which empowers you to work a lot on your solution and communicate with enthusiasm to other people to find like-minded people and form a team. Forming a team is very important because some day you will need more skills or thought exchange or working hours than you have at hand yourself and if you don’t have a team then, your solution will be limited in its growth and loose its sustainability and you can even begin to burn out.

So far my thoughts are no rocket science I think. But a thought hit me as I was telling a friend that I lacked the feeling of having the parts/activities in my life integrated into a vision/goal which makes me feel like “This is what I am. This is what I want to achieve. I don’t just work, I burn for making my vision real and everything makes sense!”

If you are deeply committed to solving a problem in your environment and burn for it, the way you are and the skills you have will make more and more sense in your life as you will be able to use them for your solution and the puzzle of your life reveals a mystery and shows the entrepreneur required for making the solution real.

I think this must be a wonderful feeling (even if you can’t sleep at night sometimes because you are full of visionary thoughts) which gives you a lot of inner fuel and strength. I mean after all, you have just found the confirmation for the need to be needed and a really meaningful activity and you are somehow made for it – wow!

I feel like my words still lack a bit the clarity to paint the picture of this entrepreneur in my mind but maybe you can help me with your comments and questions so that I can develop this idea further?

Have a great day,

Chris

I Am Back – Am I Back?

Hello world,

how have you been?

Just came back here somehow feeling like doing so. Well, what’s new on my side of life?Image

  • I fell in love and I broke up – it was a short but intense time
  • I started studying to become a master degree and stopped studying – it was a short but not wasted time
  • I started to take some dancing lessons and I still enjoy it – it is a weekly delight often clearing my head full of thoughts
  • I am still singing and might perform for the first time since a very long time on stage soon
  • I read a lot of books and discovered a little interest for art and architecture, suggestions welcome on these issues!
  • I might have learned a lot about myself – want to share some thoughts with you right now…
  1. Asking the right questions
    If I don’t know enough about the things I am working on, I tend to try to puzzle things out myself. After some time without finding any working solution, I get frustrated and feel blocked. The way to get back on track: Asking the right questions – or at least asking a team mate for help. Only this way I can improve my knowledge and feel more confident about the work I do. Which leads me to…
  2. Finding the right attitude
    Some days, I tend to shut up and listen and listen and listen and wait, you get it but I didn’t understand the last thing you said but I just keep listening and lose track and you keep talking… This is not the right attitude, I can’t keep staying that passive because I risk to miss a lot of learning opportunities this way. So even if I’m feeling tired or in a bad mood, I need to ask questions if I don’t understand something someone is telling me and not let a monologue happen. I need to keep learning to…
  3. Keep on moving
    I’m 23 years old, been working for seven months now after finishing my studies and I still feel that I’m quite at the beginning of my working career and journey of life. I am getting a clue where I could head for but am still unsure how to get there. But step by step, I keep on moving. Facing challenges instead of suffering from problems – that’s the attitude, dude!

So much from my side of life for now, now it’s up to you:

  • What are the challenges you are currently facing?
  • What’s on your mind?
  • Which is the direction you’re heading for?

Wishing all of you a great time.

Chris

 

I Love Loyal Friends

Howdy folks,

Passing on my way to work - looks impressive in the early darkness

Passing on my way to work – looks impressive in the early darkness

how are you? I’ve been off for quite a few days now only replying to comments and sometimes reading one or another blog post but not participating here most of the time. But I have still about 20 views per day and am getting a few comments each day. I’m impressed and want to say thank you for your loyalty!

Well, short update for me so that you know what I am up to do:

Taken on my before last visit at my grandma's

Taken on my before last visit at my grandma’s

Currently I’m quite into “real people” so I try to use every possibility to meet with and talk to people, anyway if for music collaboration, sightseeing or just for passing time because the train is waiting for three hours on its journey to my hometown because someone decided to commit suicide using the train just before us. I am breathing life deep into my veins and am working full time, so blogging falls short these days. No, I guess with these two, blogging would enjoy having very much attention but I am also into educational research and decided to begin a master in IT Management by “homeschooling”. I am so excited to get my first learning materials! Hope to feel like to catch up actively on your news soon, my friends. But feel free to drop me a line telling me what’s happening at yours right now please!

Have a great time and celebrate life.

Chris

What Gratitude Has Taught Me

Good morning, Gabriel!
Thank you very much for sharing these wise words and for working that hard and focused on your personal development. I think you really deserve to be successful and will be one day, hopefully soon.
Good luck my friend:

What Gratitude Has Taught Me.

May peace surround you and be happiness your friend,
Chris

On My Way To Happiness, I Pick The Flower “Party” Of The Bunch Of Life (Day 07)

Howdy folks,

On my way to happiness, I pick the flower “Party” of the bunch of life today.

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I pick the flower “Party” of the bunch of life

Dance, drink reasonably, party with friends or to make friends. Turn up the music now!

What is your flower of the bunch of life today? Please let us know by commenting on this post.

If you want to start your own bunch of life, here is the bunch of life template:

Bunch of life template

Bunch of life template

May peace surround you and be happiness your friend,

Chris

P.S.: All my bunch of life posts can be found here.

On My Way To Happiness, I Pick The Flower “Nature” Of The Bunch Of Life (Day 06)

Howdy folks,

On my way to happiness, I pick the flower “Nature” of the bunch of life today.

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I pick the flower “Nature” of the bunch of life

I find peace by a walk through the nature and get happy being grateful for this wonderful creation.

What is your flower of the bunch of life today? Please let us know by commenting on this post.

If you want to start your own bunch of life, here is the bunch of life template:

Bunch of life template

Bunch of life template

May peace surround you and be happiness your friend,

Chris

P.S.: All my bunch of life posts can be found here.

On My Way To Happiness, I Pick The Flower “Share” Of The Bunch Of Life (Day 05)

Howdy folks,

On my way to happiness, I pick the flower “Share” of the bunch of life today.

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I pick the flower “Share” of the bunch of life

Sharing can double the joy of creation.

What is your flower of the bunch of life today? Please let us know by commenting on this post.

If you want to start your own bunch of life, here is the bunch of life template:

Bunch of life template

Bunch of life template

May peace surround you and be happiness your friend,

Chris

P.S.: All my bunch of life posts can be found here.

On My Way To Happiness, I Pick The Flower “Create” Of The Bunch Of Life (Day 04)

Howdy folks,

On my way to happiness, I pick the flower “Create” of the bunch of life today.

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I pick the flower “Create” of the bunch of life

A very good reason to be here, my friends!

What is your flower of the bunch of life today? Please let us know by commenting on this post.

If you want to start your own bunch of life, here is the bunch of life template:

Bunch of life template

Bunch of life template

May peace surround you and be happiness your friend,

Chris

P.S.: All my bunch of life posts can be found here.