In Pursuit of the Light

Today, I want to continue my very personal story (last post was in October 2014) and as “Circle of fear” feels rather like where I have come from than where I am going to, I want to rename my very personal story from now on to “In Pursuit of the Light”. To illustrate what I mean with these words, I want to show you my…

Vision of life

The goal(s?) in my life

The power of love

Yes: I am a dreamer

And yes, sometimes it feels like a punishment but it feels so great when you meet someone who sees the dawn with you before the rest of the world and maybe can even help you make the world see it a little earlier.

Why sustainability?

But now back to my very personal story…

In Pursuit of the Light

Let’s say I begin to think about my life again after three years filled with studies and girlfriend struggle. I discover the great book “The seven habits of highly effective people” by Stephen Covey and begin taking control of my life again. I do better at work, enjoy my life more and more and feel quite good. I am spending very great summer holidays, one week of hiking with my parents (Austria) and two weeks of language-learning/practising and partying/excessive dancing (Salamanca, Spain). I discover how much I like to get to know to new people once again and organise some parties and connect people to each other. Back in Germany, some may have a hard time getting used to my new self-confidence but yeah, we are working on that. So lots of things are happening/I make lots of things happen and I want to leave you here for getting my shower to get ready for another exciting day.

This is how I left you last time I was writing down my very personal story. So what happened since then?

After the extreme energy and dancing in Summer 2014, I get known to a lovely girl from Fall to Spring and reaching Summer 2015, I wake up from my “Wintersleep” realizing I was not living to my full potential in this relationship and we break up. In Spring 2015, I begin working as an IT consultant quitting the company I worked at during and after my studies. As I am working most of the time from my home office (and only sometimes having workshops with customers what I would prefer much more), I look for excitement and social interaction outside of my work. I go a lot to the dancing parties of my dancing school, most of the time with the dancing partner I am dancing with for more than a year now. We spend our summer holidays at the Lake Constance together and enjoy the time very much. I am reaching my highest energy at the end of September 2015 when taking part in the Project Management Karlsruhe where I can talk and think a lot with great people and inspiring sessions.

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I go to another dancing party just after the PM Camp is over and my life changes in a sudden. I am dancing with a woman I am knowing quite well for the little walk we had with some other persons from my dancing school in the summer. She tells me that my eyes would look empty and I begin to listen to my body. She tells me a few words while we are dancing and all of a sudden, my artificially pushed energy level gets down to a kind of natural tiredness after exhaustion and at the end of the dance, we hug each other. Laying in each other’s arms, we change the room and sit down for a close talk. In the following days, we see each other a lot and have continued to do so ever since. My words from “In our forest” are inspired by our first days. We seem to be very different but having the same goals in life which means we can support each other quite well, living a love I have not known before. When I see my grandma for the next time, I tell her that I have a new girlfriend and before she can reply anything, I tell her “I believe this time, she’s the one”. I am sure we will enjoy our pursuit of the light together.

But well, there is not only light in the world. In Spring 2015, I discover that I have started my master studies (distant learning) without thinking too much and decide to quit the pain and live without master degree – quite well so far I think.

In Fall 2015, I end the friendship with my dancing partner I spent my summer holidays with because I feel like I have to be an older, less energized version of myself when being with her. It gets complicated and sometimes ugly but feels great once I have cut all ways back – after all it is often leaving a door back open which ties us to our past and prevents us from reaching our full potential, I think. Of course, this does not mean that we do not need to make peace with our past – I accept that I have lost a friend but am grateful for the great time we had.

With the shaping of my vision of life I told you about above, I feel wrong with my job at the IT consulting company. I feel like I have to do too much things, I don’t love or the world don’t need that much and at the same time, I have learned during a Massive Open Online Course about Social Business which great things companies can do. I love my customers and enjoy working with them a lot but my bosses boss me around too much and sometimes show that they dream less than I do. I know that I am a hard-to-employ employee because I do not accept leadership executed by organizational position (“You have to do so because I am the boss”) and ask for real profit from my work for our customers and less focus on the profit of the company. But anyway, I close the door to my past once more and quit the job (currently I have my last working days till January 2016). It feels great, this smell of adventure!

Well, I am not unemployed despite this, I have started working for the Cooperate State University Karlsruhe as a project staff member in the area of eLearning (well known from my studies) – a job which feels a lot more like the purpose star in the first image.

DSC_5928_smallAnd there is a lot more to come, whatever it may be. I am on my way in pursuit of the light.

Enjoy the last days of this year – spend the Christmas days peacefully and wisely with your loved ones and if we do not talk to each other before 2016 – have a great start into the new year everybody!

 

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In our forest

Why should I destroy what is growing under your feet?
Why should I cut the things around you,
fill the ground around you with concrete?
Build a fence around you and isolate you
so that you only grow by me?

We are trees in the forest,
our roots touch each other.
We live by the same soil.
Breathe the same air,
drink the rain together.

On your own you will die if I don’t water you.
With me, you will only grow by my light and water.
I love the passion for life.
I love the power, the surprise, the storm.
Who should light up the fire that I did not see coming?
Who but you, ignited by someone else?
Breathing the oxygen the sky gives to you.

Fly free like a bird in the sky, my heaven.
Dive to the sea bed and taste the sea.
Sing and dance, laugh and jump, cry and shout.
However you need it.
I am with you.
I am with you wherever you are.
I am with you whatever you do.
Fly my bird, fly.
Breathe life.

In our forest, there is space for everybody
For everybody who lives, who loves, who is.
I want to multiply peace, the sign of love, by ten,
giving the power of humanity to the earth,
forever.
Be my peace, my love,
I be your power and you be my earth,
I be your love and you be my life,
my eternity, my present, at the moment.

In times of silence, I can feel you.
I am often too loud, often too fast
Am the bow tensed with an arrow and fly with the arrow.
When I am with you, I am with me, my homeland, my harbour.

Blow all the borders with your roots growing.
Hold your treetop upwind and downwind, no matter the storm.
Give love and soil to grow at your roots.
Fly my bird, fly,
Breathe life, my heaven.
Let us multiply peace, the sign of love, by ten
and let us give the power of humanity to the earth,
forever.
When I am with you, I am with me, my homeland, my harbour.
My heart, my soul.
We will find each other again and again,
no matter which space,
no matter what time.

Circles of fear – a very personal story (Episode 6 (Summer 2010 – Summer 2014))

Episode 5

herbstAfter spending a very young summer (after all she is 4 years younger than me) with a lot of self-made music, little love adventures and a lot of relaxing in the Castle garden of Karlsruhe, my cooperative studies begin. I enjoy working and discovering the freedom I’ve got in my company. There is a monthly meeting which everybody can join and I am told that after every project presentation everybody can ask every question. So once attending to this meeting for the first time (after working a few days in this company), I ask 4 questions after 4 presentations (100% score, yay!) and get my first standing at the company. Some might be embarassed for the rest of their lifetime now but that’s not my way.

After Christmas, I change to my studying phase and work hard because I have a certain fear of not making it. I make it, even too good so that I decide to relax during the second year of studies. But one step after another…

Do you understand that I want to get back to this physical state? :)

Could I become a jacket model? 🙂

By the beginning of 2011, I have helped my girlfriend to become a lot better at school and lifted her up so that she does not hurt herself anymore or only at very rare occassions. I feel happy and we enjoy our time together travelling, making music and discovering/rediscovering the teenage way towards becoming an adult. It hits me like thunder once I learn that my girlfriend is suffering from some kind of bulimic anorexia. She has talked to my brother who decides that he can’t take the responsibility to keep that secret and talks to me. Three days later, she talks to me and tells me what happened to her.

Now I can handle it, another potential developing project, we can make it baby, here we go! I take her to a doctor, we talk to her mother, we try a lot of things and sometimes she feels better and sometimes she feels worse. Work is becoming a little less important even if I am struggling with the teams during my second year’s working phases. I guess I can thank to the music and my inner knowledge of my potential and unconscious feeling of my energy that I don’t start getting another psychic illness…

It’s by that time, in the end of 2011/beginning of 2012 that I begin to develop a little emotional distance from my girlfriend. I guess it’s a little self-protection wall against her sometimes very hard verbal aggressions. After all, she is sick and not herself or in control of herself all of the time anymore so I don’t blame her for that but take the necessary steps to protect myself. Though this beginning of losing my love for her, I still believe we can make it and move into a flat with her in autumn 2012. I accept a 90 minutes door-to-door one-way way to work everyday to be able to live with her despite the fact we work in different cities. In the beginning, it’s worth the pain. She gets a lot better once having left her parents (where she lacked the attention she needed or wanted to get). At least for sometime…

Through the green gate

Through the green gate

After about three months, I realize a change in her behaviour, now highly sensitive for this kind of behaviour. She is starting to overreact, to refuse being touched, to worry about eating, trying hard to destroy her life once again. I support her trying lots of things even though she has made my daily way-to-work-pain a ridiculous sacrifice by quitting her job and staying at home looking for another job closer to the city I work in. But my emotional self-protection wall begins to grow, I kind of put my heart into the freezer and we live together in the most independent way possible in a 3-room flat.

Ah yeah, I almost forgot, my final study year has already begun and I am working hard to prove my company I am the one to hire after my studies. I am writing a good project paper after a well-appreciated project in my company and discover my interest for education writing two research papers at the cooperative state university.
After some time of hard work and uncertainty, I finally get my working contract and can fully concentrate on writing a great bachelor thesis. Looking at my final grade, I haven’t done that bad…

2013-09-25 14.31.00In Autumn 2013, I leave for Kazan, Russia, to present a paper developed out of my research papers about education. I discover in this foreign country how easy communication with a girl can be even if you only share about 5 words in one language (she only speaks Russian and very very few words of english but luckily she is that smart she brings her tablet with google translator with her the second day). Nothing more happens but once back in Germany, I decide to accept my emotional wall and leave my girlfriend – may she do whatever she wants to her life as cruel as it may sound. I break up (I am so bad at it) and she falls in love again with another guy after a week or something.

I move to my parents’ again and enjoy life at Hotel Mummy again. Not for a long time, I lose my platin card guest status quite quickly and begin to mow the lane, clean the road and do some housework again quite soon. But I am not alone if I need someone to talk and I am independent enough in my room if I need some time for my own.
I begin working at the company where I studied after my longer holidays and enjoy it quite much. Towards christmas I am concentrating on a little love story with a chinese girl living in Cologne (in short it was like a rocket – took me almost to the stars in a sudden but somehow I dropped back to earth in a sudden like a waste part of a multistage rocket). This story already finishes shortly after the beginning of 2014 and I concentrate on work again.

2013-10-11 10.45.46I realize that now I am done, I’ve reached my last goals – getting my bachelor degree and getting hired. What am I supposed to do now? Should I keep working until my retirement? What do I do during my spare time? Why does work feel so bad and unfitting sometimes? Am I doing the right thing?

30 days of proacitivity diary - read me in the morning - tell me in the evening

30 days of proacitivity diary – read me in the morning – tell me in the evening

Let’s say I begin to think about my life again after three years filled with studies and girlfriend struggle. I discover the great book “The seven habits of highly effective people” by Stephen Covey and begin taking control of my life again. I do better at work, enjoy my life more and more and feel quite good. I am spending very great summer holidays, one week of hiking with my parents (Austria) and two weeks of language-learning/practising and partying/excessive dancing (Salamanca, Spain). I discover how much I like to get to know to new people once again and organise some parties and connect people to each other. Back in Germany, some may have a hard time getting used to my new self-confidence but yeah, we are working on that.

So lots of things are happening/I make lots of things happen and I want to leave you here for getting my shower to get ready for another exciting day.

Thanks for reading and feel free to ask for more detail whereever I have gone to fast.

Cheers,
Chris

I Am Back – Am I Back?

Hello world,

how have you been?

Just came back here somehow feeling like doing so. Well, what’s new on my side of life?Image

  • I fell in love and I broke up – it was a short but intense time
  • I started studying to become a master degree and stopped studying – it was a short but not wasted time
  • I started to take some dancing lessons and I still enjoy it – it is a weekly delight often clearing my head full of thoughts
  • I am still singing and might perform for the first time since a very long time on stage soon
  • I read a lot of books and discovered a little interest for art and architecture, suggestions welcome on these issues!
  • I might have learned a lot about myself – want to share some thoughts with you right now…
  1. Asking the right questions
    If I don’t know enough about the things I am working on, I tend to try to puzzle things out myself. After some time without finding any working solution, I get frustrated and feel blocked. The way to get back on track: Asking the right questions – or at least asking a team mate for help. Only this way I can improve my knowledge and feel more confident about the work I do. Which leads me to…
  2. Finding the right attitude
    Some days, I tend to shut up and listen and listen and listen and wait, you get it but I didn’t understand the last thing you said but I just keep listening and lose track and you keep talking… This is not the right attitude, I can’t keep staying that passive because I risk to miss a lot of learning opportunities this way. So even if I’m feeling tired or in a bad mood, I need to ask questions if I don’t understand something someone is telling me and not let a monologue happen. I need to keep learning to…
  3. Keep on moving
    I’m 23 years old, been working for seven months now after finishing my studies and I still feel that I’m quite at the beginning of my working career and journey of life. I am getting a clue where I could head for but am still unsure how to get there. But step by step, I keep on moving. Facing challenges instead of suffering from problems – that’s the attitude, dude!

So much from my side of life for now, now it’s up to you:

  • What are the challenges you are currently facing?
  • What’s on your mind?
  • Which is the direction you’re heading for?

Wishing all of you a great time.

Chris

 

I Wanted To Create Something Beautiful

Cover of "Something Beautiful"

Cover of Something Beautiful

“What did you came here for, boy?” she is asking. “I don’t know, I just wanted to create something beautiful, you know? Not even something that lasts but maybe something that creates an emotion that lasts in someone’s heart…” he answers. “But why do you think this is the right place to create that kind of thing?” she is digging deeper, not giving up on her journey to the heart of the truth. “I don’t know, I’ve never been good at drawing. Neither at other visual arts or sports. I mean I have been doing some good sometimes but never anything really beautiful, nothing that made me proud for more than one sec. I tried to write a book but I have never made enough sense to finish it. I wrote some lyrics but none of them was brilliant enough to make me proud for more than a few days yet. Anyway, until recently, I’ve been not that much of a singer to perform a brilliant lyrics in a beautiful way. Now I might dare to give it a try but am lacking the musicians to start this journey together. We’ll see what time does to this option of creating

there are beautiful places

there are beautiful places

something beautiful. But back to your question. I came here to tell the world about the light side of Gamification but was deceived with the first poor amount of feedback I got. After some time, I came back and realized I could write about much more than Gamification. I told the world about my psychosis and recovering from it, about some impressive books I read, about my educational research and ideas, posted some lyrics, photos and invited everyone to join me on my way to happiness. A few months ago I spent a lot of time on this blog every day. I felt like I was making some sense, like I could make a difference to someone. I hope I have done so.”

2013-09-25 14.31.00“Why do you sound like you’ve already closed this chapter?” she cannot resist to proceed with her questioning. “Well, you see I’ve been some weeks off or almost off, for various reasons. One reason is that I broke up with my girlfriend some months ago and then focused more on what I could call ‘real life and real people’. I wanted to meet people face to face and somehow spent less time on this blog. One day, I stopped following my weekly reading list and only answered comments I got here. I began my master studies and worked full time at the same time so I had enough to do during the day and evening that I did not feel a big need to participate that much in the amazing Word Press community anymore. However, I don’t think I’ve closed this chapter yet. I’d rather say I’ve changed to another book but still know where the old one is if one day, I want to come back. And I am sure I will, from time to time, whenever I feel like doing so. You see, the probability to create something beautiful and maybe even meaningful is much higher if you just let it happen and let the inspiration stopping by before beginning to write. The story of my life is not something linear, there are ups and downs, there are times with lots of events and changes and there are times when I feel like waiting for something not knowing what it might be. Why should I ever try to force my writing to be something that my life is not, something regular and linear? By now, with all of my 23 years of existence, I’ve learned that the good things come at the right time.

Walk through this gate with me

Walk through this gate with me

We can always try to improve our self and I try it day by day but I’ve learned about what I call “working with me” and “working against me”. It might sound a bit paradox but I believe both that we can improve ourselves very much and that the best version of ourselves is somehow predetermined. But thinking more about it, I guess it could make sense. In my life, I have often been working against me, muttering a low bass voice in the school choir (now knowing I have a high tenor voice), being very introvert (now knowing that communication and talking is one of my big talents) to list only a few examples. I worked a lot to become more of the Me - Ready for band rehearsalperson I think I am meant to be (this somehow predetermined best version of myself).” “I think I am getting your point”, she uses his short break, not asking a question for the first time in this conversation between the old friends Ms Doubtnosy and Mr Lookatmybigego. “I’ve only one question left: What is this new book you mentioned before about?” she points toward the end of this conversation. “I’m not the guy who reads the last pages first so I can’t tell you yet. The only thing I can tell you is that it is supposed to be about living a big love between two very different people who have a lot in common, who live in different cities but like to watch the same movies, who are from different countries but share the same dream. There might also be some lines about successful master studies, founding a band, playing some gigs, succeeding at work and of course, some dissatisfaction which is also the root of improvement.”

Thank you for reading this interview with myself, I hope you enjoyed doing so. I am here for your comments and whenever you want me to read something or have got a question for me, I will be happy to be of service.

I am wishing all of you the very best for the year to come, enjoy and celebrate these days, my friends.

May peace surround you, love kiss you and happiness be your friend.

Chris

For you there’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do

Howdy folks,

these words are part of the beautiful song “Hey brother” by Avicii you can listen to playing the video below.

World wide web

World wide web (Photo credit: patrikneckman)

Do you know this feeling of deep love an care for the world? The feeling that you want to change something for the better, to make this world become a better place?

The effects of just one month spent in a Viet ...

(Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I mean sure, many of us are leading quite a good life nowadays but there is still starvation, disease and poverty around. There is also what I would like to call the “intellectual starvation”, the “over-consumption” disease and the “can’t pay my debt rates anymore” poverty in what we think of civilized society. So we can already think about a lot of things to do next door instead of hoping that it never happens to us or that we never become this way. We need to make a change my friends!

I am wondering what are the things I really need in my life. I will try to write down a list here beginning with the material things as they might come easier into my mind:

  • My notebook and smart phone (and the WWW) to work on my research, to collaborate and to communicate with my friends
  • A house and a bed are very nice things though other things might do depending on the climate
  • Clothes look good and might make me feel more comfortable but might not be necessary depending on the climate either
  • I am really a fan of my cosmetics and toothbrush and think most of them help me to lead a better life
  • Piano

    Piano (Photo credit: esc861)

    If I was not a singer, I surely would need some music instruments

  • Something to eat is necessary of course.
  • Because of the way we live, I need some money to satisfy my needs
  • Without friends, family and love, the world would be a much darker place
  • I need to sing because I love it (quite true for my other spare time activities)
  • Okay, let’s definitely add music and arts to this list!
simple

simple (Photo credit: monkeyc.net)

I could have missed something here but I think you might already grasp my point by this rather short list compared to the amount of things one might possess. I already think that I own quite a lot of things I hardly need and might change this fact. But I guess thinking carefully about really needing it before buying something (a proactive strategy) is needed much more. I will keep that in mind!

I hope you will find your way to make our world become a better place. What do you think of? What do you do to make a change?

May peace surround you and be happiness your friend,

Chris

P.S.: As I never experienced war, peace is quite natural to me but I guess I should add it to my list. Peace!

Tell Me I’m Wrong, Please!

Howdy folks,

without much comments another lyrics of mine. Comments and Likes are very welcome.

 

Kiss from a rose

Kiss from a rose

Why don’t you | talk to me any | more?

What have I | done to you that you | treat me this way

Tell me a | reason, this is what I am | asking for.

I want | clarity, even if it means you | say

good- | bye. | | |

 

I know it is | weird, I mean I just don’t | know you

you know we | talked on the train and I | found you

acci- | dentally, thought it was | faith, now I am going | through

hell you know I don’t | know why you don’t talk to me | _ anymore

I only | know that I am missing | _ you _|_

 

Sorry - had to let this out...

Sorry – had to let this out…

I am | missing the days we could | have just the two of us

I am | missing the things we could | learn about you and me

I am | crying I even don’t know why it | hurts so bad, feels like I must

ac- | cept I’ve never been a part of your | beautiful life.

You seem to | want me to | _ leave. | Tell me I’m wrong | _ please

 

| Yesterday I felt so high as I | found you

You | texted me, you were drunk and your | friends wrote silly things

I hope you | know I never wanted to hurt or to | use you

I just wanted to get to | know to the girl that rushed into my | life like springs

I am | missing you

without even | knowing you

I am | missing you

wishing for | getting to | know | you

I am | missing you _|_

 

Dark and rainy days

Dark and rainy days

I am | missing the days we could | have just the two of us

I am | missing the things we could | learn about you and me

I am | crying I even don’t know why it | hurts so bad, feels like I must

ac- | cept I’ve never been a part of your | beautiful life.

You seem to | want me to | _ leave. | Tell me I’m wrong | _ please

 

May peace surround you and be happiness your friend, hope it will be mine tomorrow, again.

Chris

From Above The Clouds Look Like Islands In The Sea – Flying Back To What I Thought Of Being My Home

Howdy folks,

Photo taken out of the plane's window before the plane was ready to take off - I was not

Photo taken out of the plane’s window before the plane was ready to take off – I was not

today I am a bit sad because I had to fly back from Russia yesterday and there is at least one reason I would have liked to stay there for – guess I will tell you more before Christmas. Now I am listening to “Macklemore – And we danced” on my playlist (click play below if you want to) and am trying to get my mood up to tell you about these wonderful last days in Kasan, Russia.

Bloom's Taxonomy is surely inhibited by the Instruction Paradigm - I want to purify it in my next publication

Bloom’s Taxonomy is surely inhibited by the Instruction Paradigm – I want to purify it in my next publication

Well, Friday I spent listening to some very inspiring presentations which I am very grateful for. Already planning the next publication which could take me to Barcelona, Spain. And planning a publication to get me to New York next Spring. You see, there’s plenty of work so thank you very much for your understanding that I am a bit behind answering all your very appreciated and lovely comments and visiting your blogs right now. As soon as things get a bit calmer again, I will get back to you, my very important persons and friends.

The sushi bar in Korston Hotel, Kasan

The sushi bar in Korston Hotel, Kasan

Friday in the evening, I had dinner at the sushi bar again, this time with two glühwein and a lot of additional glow in my stomache. At midnight, I went upstairs and prepared myself for the trip home. Feeling already a bit sad.

A plane at the Moscow SVO airport - they have cool panorama windows there

A plane at the Moscow SVO airport – they have cool panorama windows there

Then I had a nap for about 50 minutes, took a shower and was transported to Kasan Airport. The trip went well and I arrived at what I thought of being home before this trip at about 2pm. I had another nap for three hours and began to work on my publication.

Yesterday in the evening, there was a glowing in my stomache thanks to the internet again. Looking forward to my glowing stomache today, already got a first one listening to “Brazzaville – Girl from Vladivostock” (click below to listen to it).

Take care, my very appreciated friends, I am grateful for all of you being here.

May peace surround you and be happiness your friend, even if your love is far away at the moment.

Chris

P.S.: You can read all my posts about my trip to Kasan, Russia, here.

Is Summer Over Now?

Howdy folks,

here’s another lyrics for you that came into my mind reading shadowedteenager’s post. Hope you like it!

English: Summer field in Belgium (Hamois). The...

English: Summer field in Belgium (Hamois). The blue flower is Centaurea cyanus and the red one a Papaver rhoeas. Français : Un champ en été en Belgique (Hamois). La fleur bleue est un bleuet des champs et la rouge un coquelicot. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Summer’s | over
Even if the | leaves aren’t falling yet
It’s getting | cold at night and | sun doesn’t recover
So it’s | cold and wet all | day
Summer’s | over |

| How many times did you | smile this summer?
When the sun | smiled upon your | face?
How many times did you | laugh this summer?
Think of them | now you’re in a | haze

Summer Love

Summer Love (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

It’s | spring when our hearts bounce and | our love starts
It’s | summer when we laugh and | love with our hearts
It’s | fall when we get | slowly depressed
Hope that | winter will finally | do its best
Em- | bedding our minds with tender | flakes of snow
| Lighting our hearts with the sun’s re- | flection glow
| Wrapping all up in beautiful | white and though
it is | cold, it is | dark, never kill the | love in our hearts
| Think of this, be- | fore you go! |

Leaves in fall

Leaves in fall (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Summer’s | over
We had a | beautiful time
| Yesterday i tried hard | not to cry
When you | told me i wouldn’t | care about you
i | loved you but you pushed me a- | way way too many | times
| is summer | over now? |

People walk across the frozen Kunming Lake whi...

People walk across the frozen Kunming Lake while snow falls at the Summer Palace, Beijing (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

It’s | spring when our hearts bounce and | our love starts
It’s | summer when we laugh and | love with our hearts
It’s | fall when we get | slowly depressed
Hope that | winter will finally | do its best
Em- | bedding our minds with tender | flakes of snow
| Lighting our hearts with the sun’s re- | flection glow
| Wrapping all up in beautiful | white and though
it is | cold, it is | dark, never kill the | love in our hearts
| Think of this, be- | fore you go! |

Shout emoticon

Shout emoticon (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

is summer | over now?
Or can we | still be saved?
is summer | over now?
Tell me what | should i change?
is summer | over now?
You tell me i | treat you unkind
is summer | over now?
i miss the | you that didn’t always | start a fight
is summer | over now?
is summer | over now?
is summer | over now?
please | get well soon I’m feeling the | end of my time
of sup- | porting you, now you should | make up your mind
you’re | beautiful, | clever but way far too de- | pressed
maybe you need to | struggle alone, would it | be the best
for | you?
even if it | means
that summer’s | over now?

Yiheyuan spring blossom

Yiheyuan spring blossom (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

It’s | spring when our hearts bounce and | our love starts
It’s | summer when we laugh and | love with our hearts
It’s | fall when we get | slowly depressed
Hope that | winter will finally | do its best
Em- | bedding our minds with tender | flakes of snow
| Lighting our hearts with the sun’s re- | flection glow
| Wrapping all up in beautiful | white and though
it is | cold, it is | dark, might kill the | love in our hearts
i’ll | think of this, | if i go! |

My answers to the key questions for transforming work into a meaningful activity that makes you happy

Howdy folks,

today I decided to answer the key questions asked to everyone of you to answer for yourself in my blog entry about how to transform work into a meaningful activity that makes you happy while doing it.

So here we go:

Man thinking on a train journey.

Man thinking on a train journey. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

What are my personal aims?

  • being able to perform frequently as a singer with a band
  • writing songs for your soul
  • supporting my loved ones as well as my friends
  • changing the world for the better, beginning with me
  • working on my personal projects, e.g. my favorite future fashion store
  • Owning and running a farm with my love
  • Staying abroad every three years for six months, at least three times in my life
  • Having children one day
  • Succeeding at and enjoying work
Sing

Sing (Photo credit: Kathleen Tyler Conklin)

What are things that I like to do?

  • singing
  • communicating
  • thinking
  • having visions and breaking them down to reality
  • supporting/mentoring people
  • writing lyrics
  • exercising with my band
  • having singing lessons with my great singing teacher
  • sparetime activities with my love and/or friends
  • blogging (both communicating and writing)
  • analyzing and solving problems
Houseworks

Houseworks (Photo credit: the Italian voice)

What are things that I don’t like to do?

  • most of the housework so I try to automate it wherever it is possible
  • repetive tasks (except for exercising)
  • eating bad because alternatives are harder to reach or even worse
  • working in a known to be suboptimal way and continuing to work that way
My blog's logo

My blog’s logo

What am I good at?

  • singing
  • writing
  • communicating
  • analyzing problems
  • solving problems
  • supporting people
  • running my blog (I am still learning but never thought I could met that much wonderful people out here)

What am I bad at and do I want to change something about it?

  • housework (I am slow and I don’t like to do it so I want to automate it, my birthday wish is a dishwasher)
  • drawing (it is enough for sketches to explain something to somebody, so I might not change it for some time)
  • recognizing vip faces on TV (it is actually fun, so I can live with it)
  • staying serious (sometimes I overdo it with comedy, working on this one)
  • working because I have to (I want to reduce the “have to” work to a minimum, so I will stay with my “I don’t like it, I only do it for the deadline or for not having to worry about it anymore” attitude)
  • if you recognize anything I could be bad at, please let me know so I can decide if I want to change it. Thanks!
A Great Meal

A Great Meal (Photo credit: donut2D)

When do I feel happy?

  • when I sing
  • when I support/mentor someone
  • when I work on something that means much to me, e.g. on my own projects
  • when I communicate with people I like
  • when I get great feedback and feel connected to someone
  • when things are doing great with my love
  • when I solved a problem
  • when I eat something tasty (even better if it is healthy, too)
Love ? I love love love you.

Love ? I love love love you. (Photo credit: @Doug88888)

What is it then that makes me feel happy?

  • for singing it is the harmony of my body, the rhythm and my words reaching out for the audience which gives me a feeling of control and power and meaningfulness
  • for supporting/mentoring someone, it is the feeling that I make a difference and make a life better/show someone how to change his/her life for the better and support him/her doing so
  • for working on something that means much to me, it is the feeling that I am pursuing my dreams and that I could make a difference
  • for communicating, it is the learning, the thinking, the supporting and the emotions and relations which change and mostly improve dynamically and make it exciting and meaningful
  • for getting great feedback, it is recognition and the connection even reinforces this recognition and gets me into support/mentor mode
  • for my love, it is the love and the mutually pursuing of our dreams
  • for having solved a problem, it is the feeling of making a difference and of “fiero
  • for eating well it is the feeling that I have done something I have to in the most enjoyable way
Yoda

Yoda (Photo credit: davidyuweb)

Is there any chance to trigger the reason for that happiness more often (e.g. by changing your workplace, join your working place community (or found it) or invest more time in a particular spare time activity)?

  • I want to change my working position to a kind of mentor/problem manager and teambuilder for at least 20% of my work time by October 2013 (I then have finished my studies and begin to “really” work (before there were only the working phases of my cooperative studies).
  • I want to continually manage my available time to be able to sing, to communicate/to blog, to meet with friends, to work on my projects and to spend great time with my wonderful love.
  • I want to continually analyze when I feel unhappy or unsatisfied and try to change these situations.

When do I wish to change something and why do I think this change is impossible instead of trying to go for the change?

  • I never think of change as impossible, I divide it only into “change now, required ressources and opportunities as well as the importance for change do exist” and “change later if it is still necessary then”.

When do I blame others and could I not do something about solving the problem myself if it is that important to me?

  • Whenever I catch myself blaming others, I think about this question and whenever I catch someone blaming others, I ask him/her this question (normally in a more subtle way so that I lead him/her to the answer without having asked this question).

That’s it for now, hope you enjoyed reading and want to answer these questions for yourself now. I will definitely answer them again in something like a half year to see what has changed/if something has changed.

Have a great day & may peace surround you,

Chris