In Pursuit of the Light

Today, I want to continue my very personal story (last post was in October 2014) and as “Circle of fear” feels rather like where I have come from than where I am going to, I want to rename my very personal story from now on to “In Pursuit of the Light”. To illustrate what I mean with these words, I want to show you my…

Vision of life

The goal(s?) in my life

The power of love

Yes: I am a dreamer

And yes, sometimes it feels like a punishment but it feels so great when you meet someone who sees the dawn with you before the rest of the world and maybe can even help you make the world see it a little earlier.

Why sustainability?

But now back to my very personal story…

In Pursuit of the Light

Let’s say I begin to think about my life again after three years filled with studies and girlfriend struggle. I discover the great book “The seven habits of highly effective people” by Stephen Covey and begin taking control of my life again. I do better at work, enjoy my life more and more and feel quite good. I am spending very great summer holidays, one week of hiking with my parents (Austria) and two weeks of language-learning/practising and partying/excessive dancing (Salamanca, Spain). I discover how much I like to get to know to new people once again and organise some parties and connect people to each other. Back in Germany, some may have a hard time getting used to my new self-confidence but yeah, we are working on that. So lots of things are happening/I make lots of things happen and I want to leave you here for getting my shower to get ready for another exciting day.

This is how I left you last time I was writing down my very personal story. So what happened since then?

After the extreme energy and dancing in Summer 2014, I get known to a lovely girl from Fall to Spring and reaching Summer 2015, I wake up from my “Wintersleep” realizing I was not living to my full potential in this relationship and we break up. In Spring 2015, I begin working as an IT consultant quitting the company I worked at during and after my studies. As I am working most of the time from my home office (and only sometimes having workshops with customers what I would prefer much more), I look for excitement and social interaction outside of my work. I go a lot to the dancing parties of my dancing school, most of the time with the dancing partner I am dancing with for more than a year now. We spend our summer holidays at the Lake Constance together and enjoy the time very much. I am reaching my highest energy at the end of September 2015 when taking part in the Project Management Karlsruhe where I can talk and think a lot with great people and inspiring sessions.

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I go to another dancing party just after the PM Camp is over and my life changes in a sudden. I am dancing with a woman I am knowing quite well for the little walk we had with some other persons from my dancing school in the summer. She tells me that my eyes would look empty and I begin to listen to my body. She tells me a few words while we are dancing and all of a sudden, my artificially pushed energy level gets down to a kind of natural tiredness after exhaustion and at the end of the dance, we hug each other. Laying in each other’s arms, we change the room and sit down for a close talk. In the following days, we see each other a lot and have continued to do so ever since. My words from “In our forest” are inspired by our first days. We seem to be very different but having the same goals in life which means we can support each other quite well, living a love I have not known before. When I see my grandma for the next time, I tell her that I have a new girlfriend and before she can reply anything, I tell her “I believe this time, she’s the one”. I am sure we will enjoy our pursuit of the light together.

But well, there is not only light in the world. In Spring 2015, I discover that I have started my master studies (distant learning) without thinking too much and decide to quit the pain and live without master degree – quite well so far I think.

In Fall 2015, I end the friendship with my dancing partner I spent my summer holidays with because I feel like I have to be an older, less energized version of myself when being with her. It gets complicated and sometimes ugly but feels great once I have cut all ways back – after all it is often leaving a door back open which ties us to our past and prevents us from reaching our full potential, I think. Of course, this does not mean that we do not need to make peace with our past – I accept that I have lost a friend but am grateful for the great time we had.

With the shaping of my vision of life I told you about above, I feel wrong with my job at the IT consulting company. I feel like I have to do too much things, I don’t love or the world don’t need that much and at the same time, I have learned during a Massive Open Online Course about Social Business which great things companies can do. I love my customers and enjoy working with them a lot but my bosses boss me around too much and sometimes show that they dream less than I do. I know that I am a hard-to-employ employee because I do not accept leadership executed by organizational position (“You have to do so because I am the boss”) and ask for real profit from my work for our customers and less focus on the profit of the company. But anyway, I close the door to my past once more and quit the job (currently I have my last working days till January 2016). It feels great, this smell of adventure!

Well, I am not unemployed despite this, I have started working for the Cooperate State University Karlsruhe as a project staff member in the area of eLearning (well known from my studies) – a job which feels a lot more like the purpose star in the first image.

DSC_5928_smallAnd there is a lot more to come, whatever it may be. I am on my way in pursuit of the light.

Enjoy the last days of this year – spend the Christmas days peacefully and wisely with your loved ones and if we do not talk to each other before 2016 – have a great start into the new year everybody!

 

Remember Happiness Today – (St)Art(ing) Sunday – Day 28

Howdy folks,

I'm on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

I’m on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

The idea of this post series is to ask you one question every day hoping the answers will remind you of happy times you would like to repeat once more. And I’m sure you will find a way to repeat them in one or another way.

If you want to read more about my personal happiness project, I recommend to you reading my sketch of the face of happiness series. Maybe you want to answer my key questions to happiness, too.

Enough words for now, guess you are already excited to get your question for today:

My brother playing the organ

I was in the opera and in the theater with my brother for the last time.

When did you go to the theater for the last time and what was the story on stage?

Please share your answer with us by commenting on this post. I look forward to reading your answers!

My poem of the day goes here:

Silence.

The curtain rises.

The king is dead.

The queen is calling.

The knight is coming.

The story ends.

The curtain falls.

Applause.

May peace surround you and happiness be your friend.

Yours sincerely,

Chris

P.S.: You can find all the Remember Happiness Today questions here.

Remember Happiness Today – Social Saturday – Day 27

Howdy folks,

I'm on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

I’m on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

The idea of this post series is to ask you one question every day hoping the answers will remind you of happy times you would like to repeat once more. And I’m sure you will find a way to repeat them in one or another way.

If you want to read more about my personal happiness project, I recommend to you reading my sketch of the face of happiness series. Maybe you want to answer my key questions to happiness, too.

Enough words for now, guess you are already excited to get your question for today:

Redesign of a gamified Software Engineering course, ICL Kazan 2013

Thank you very much for this compliment

 

When did you receive a compliment for the last time and how did you react?

Please share your answer with us by commenting on this post. I look forward to reading your answers!

My poem of the day goes here:

I want to kiss the world today

You made me happy, you just made my day.

Thank you so much.

You know, a simple “thank you”

is the best compliment sometimes.

May peace surround you and happiness be your friend.

Yours sincerely,

Chris

P.S.: You can find all the Remember Happiness Today questions here.

Remember Happiness Today – Physical Friday – Day 26

Howdy folks,

I'm on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

I’m on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

The idea of this post series is to ask you one question every day hoping the answers will remind you of happy times you would like to repeat once more. And I’m sure you will find a way to repeat them in one or another way.

If you want to read more about my personal happiness project, I recommend to you reading my sketch of the face of happiness series. Maybe you want to answer my key questions to happiness, too.

Enough words for now, guess you are already excited to get your question for today:

Do you understand that I want to get back to this physical state? :)

It was not the last time but maybe one of the most beautiful times?

When did you walk on the beach for the last time?

Please share your answer with us by commenting on this post. I look forward to reading your answers!

My poem of the day goes here:

Let your soul fly

Let it swim on the tide

Let it dive into the sea

and see what you will find.

On the beach

there is time for happy times.

May peace surround you and happiness be your friend.

Yours sincerely,

Chris

P.S.: You can find all the Remember Happiness Today questions here.

Remember Happiness Today – Thumbs Up Thursday – Day 25

Howdy folks,

I'm on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

I’m on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

The idea of this post series is to ask you one question every day hoping the answers will remind you of happy times you would like to repeat once more. And I’m sure you will find a way to repeat them in one or another way.

If you want to read more about my personal happiness project, I recommend to you reading my sketch of the face of happiness series. Maybe you want to answer my key questions to happiness, too.

Enough words for now, guess you are already excited to get your question for today:

Kiss from a rose

Kiss from a rose – I was excited to find a young woman from the train on Facebook

When were you excited for the last time and what caused your excitement?

Please share your answer with us by commenting on this post. I look forward to reading your answers!

My poem of the day goes here:

Surprise.

Joy.

Or not?

It depends

on how you take it.

Take it the easy way.

Even if it is not easy this time.

May peace surround you and happiness be your friend.

Yours sincerely,

Chris

P.S.: You can find all the Remember Happiness Today questions here.

Remember Happiness Today – Worried Wednesday – Day 24

Howdy folks,

I'm on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

I’m on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

The idea of this post series is to ask you one question every day hoping the answers will remind you of happy times you would like to repeat once more. And I’m sure you will find a way to repeat them in one or another way.

If you want to read more about my personal happiness project, I recommend to you reading my sketch of the face of happiness series. Maybe you want to answer my key questions to happiness, too.

Enough words for now, guess you are already excited to get your question for today:

May you rest in peace and enjoy the flowers on your grave,

For a short moment I was very close to cry…

When did you not know what to do for the last time and what was it making you feeling helpless?

Please share your answer with us by commenting on this post. I look forward to reading your answers!

My poem of the day goes here:

Facing it

Can be hard sometimes.

Are you ashamed?

Are you shy?

Are you hiding?

Facing it

Should be the only answer sometimes.

Face it.

To win.

May peace surround you and happiness be your friend.

Yours sincerely,

Chris

P.S.: You can find all the Remember Happiness Today questions here.

Remember Happiness Today – Thinking Tuesday – Day 23

Howdy folks,

I'm on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

I’m on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

The idea of this post series is to ask you one question every day hoping the answers will remind you of happy times you would like to repeat once more. And I’m sure you will find a way to repeat them in one or another way.

If you want to read more about my personal happiness project, I recommend to you reading my sketch of the face of happiness series. Maybe you want to answer my key questions to happiness, too.

Enough words for now, guess you are already excited to get your question for today:

I am grateful for every beacon of hope like this one of Boop!

Boop can help you – I am grateful for every beacon of hope like this one of Boop!

When did you solve a problem for the last time and what was the solution?

Please share your answer with us by commenting on this post. I look forward to reading your answers!

My poem of the day goes here:

Problems.

Pain or pleasure?

Pain if you don’t know how to solve them.

Thinking too much can hurt your head.

Pleasure once you’ve solved them.

A good friend could help.

Good luck!

May peace surround you and happiness be your friend.

Yours sincerely,

Chris

P.S.: You can find all the Remember Happiness Today questions here.

Remember Happiness Today – Material Monday – Day 22

Howdy folks,

I'm on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

I’m on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

The idea of this post series is to ask you one question every day hoping the answers will remind you of happy times you would like to repeat once more. And I’m sure you will find a way to repeat them in one or another way.

If you want to read more about my personal happiness project, I recommend to you reading my sketch of the face of happiness series. Maybe you want to answer my key questions to happiness, too.

Enough words for now, guess you are already excited to get your question for today:

My parents' garden (left)

In my parents’ garden, there are nice fruits in the summer

What is your favorite sweet and when did you eat it for the last time?

Please share your answer with us by commenting on this post. I look forward to reading your answers!

My poem of the day goes here:

Sweet, sweet friend of mine.

How are you today?

You look delicious, did you know?

I hope you will be happy on your way

down my throat.

Goodbye,

Sweet friend of mine.

May peace surround you and happiness be your friend.

Yours sincerely,

Chris

P.S.: You can find all the Remember Happiness Today questions here.

Remember Happiness Today – Day 22

Howdy folks,

I'm on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

I’m on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

The idea of this post series is to ask you one question every day hoping the answers will remind you of happy times you would like to repeat once more. And I’m sure you will find a way to repeat them in one or another way.

If you want to read more about my personal happiness project, I recommend to you reading my sketch of the face of happiness series. Maybe you want to answer my key questions to happiness, too.

Enough words for now, guess you are already excited to get your question for today:

Me - Ready for band rehearsal

I recorded a song only to send it to my girl from Vladivostock. So glad she liked it!

When was the last time you pleased someone and what did you do to please?

Please share your answer with us by commenting on this post. I look forward to reading your answers!

My poem of the day goes here:

Giving

can make you happier than taking sometimes.

Sharing can be the key

to get more of it even if you divide and the sum should stay the same

but emotions can not be calculated

at least not yet.

May peace surround you and happiness be your friend.

Yours sincerely,

Chris

P.S.: You can find all the Remember Happiness Today questions here.

Remember Happiness Today – Day 21

Howdy folks,

I'm on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

I’m on my way to happiness. Wanna join me?

The idea of this post series is to ask you one question every day hoping the answers will remind you of happy times you would like to repeat once more. And I’m sure you will find a way to repeat them in one or another way.

If you want to read more about my personal happiness project, I recommend to you reading my sketch of the face of happiness series. Maybe you want to answer my key questions to happiness, too.

Enough words for now, guess you are already excited to get your question for today:

I hate wasting my time

I hate wasting my time

What are the two things in your life that don’t fit together? What are you going to do about it?

Please share your answer with us by commenting on this post. I look forward to reading your answers!

My poem of the day goes here:

You have to lose

to win.

You have to hurt

to heal.

You have to cry

to smile again.

One’s death

is another’s birth.

You might call it

the circle of life.

Take care.

May peace surround you and happiness be your friend.

Yours sincerely,

Chris

P.S.: You can find all the Remember Happiness Today questions here.